Ultimately Paranoid

I wanted to rely on my aunts

If at all I lose my parents.

I weaned away.

I depended on my siblings,

Who should have come to my rescue.

I weaned away.

I bent on my in-laws,

Who I thought would bail me out.

I weaned away.

I was blind on many upper kin

To seek for their help, when sunk.

I weaned away.

I bet on my own offspring,

On whom I could recline, on senescence.

I weaned away.

I landed in asylum,

Where I am not alone but lonely.

I wean not anymore.

I grew paranoid,

Repenting and lamenting  

To ever wean away.

20.07.97, Agartala.